Honsetly

So my friend Rachel tagged me in her Honest Scrap Award post. We are supposed to reveal 10 facts about ourselves and be completely honest about it. Here is goes.

1. I hate not having a job. Isaac and I decided that I should quit my job at a daycare early because two little girls got the swine flu and I was exposed to it. I didn't want to take any chances of getting it because I am pregnant. So I quit a month early and I hate it. I don't like that I know I could be making money and helping our situation but I am not. I also don't like how bored and lonely I get. I think it will better once Diego comes cause I will have someone to take care of, but until then I kinda feel like I am going crazy.

2. I love to go to arcades. They are kinda nasty and filthy, but I find them so much fun. I think I have a gambler's personality. If I had money to blow I would play arcade games for hours.

3. Making dinner is one of my least favorite things to do. I don't know if anyone else feels like this, but most of the time it is so hard for me to figure out what the heck I want to fix. I even worry and stress about it most days. I am not one of those persons who can just whip something up and it is good, I have tried to make experimental things before and they were not that good. It is just something I don't like to do. It seems like such a chore to me.

4. I expect to much out of others and not enough out of myself. Sometimes I find myself getting so frustrated with my primary class because they don't listen or pay attention. I don't even think how maybe they are little kids and need extra patience. And then most times I never expect anything out of myself. I find it so hard to get motivated about anything. I want to learn Spanish cause Isaac speaks it and I want Diego to speak it but I put no effort into it but expect to know it.

5. Rach, I feel the same way. I miss Utah. I also don't miss the cold and the snow, but I really miss having people my own age in my own situation. Here in California I am so far away from any family and don't really have any friends. I have friends but I hardly ever do anything with them because I feel like if I were to call them to do something I would just bother them or get rejected. I seriously am trying to be more out going, but lots of times I just sit at home.

6. I am so done being pregnant. When I was younger and not pregnant, I always thought it would be so cool to be pregnant and that I would just love it. No so. Don't get me worng, I already have so much love for Diego and can't wait to hold him in my arms, but I really don't like being pregnant.

7. While I miss Utah for the friends I had there, I really love living in So Cal. It is so beautiful and clean and not cold. I really feel like I could live here for forever and be perfectly happy.

8. I love cold cereal. I would eat it all the time if I could. I am actually quite a picky eater. If I find something I like, I stick to it. It is hard for me to venture out and eat new things. I figure if I like something why change. There is a lot of that in me about a lot of things, not just food.

9. Lately I my desire to be more giving and generous has really increased. We have been given so much and been blessed beyond measure (seriously) that I really just want to help people. We attend a ward where lots of the members are very poor. Some of them rent rooms cause they cannot afford apartments and live with 4 or 5 people in a room. Some of these members have to live with people who do not have the same standards as they do and it is quite sad. I was actually thinking about buying a house and a part of it to people in our ward so that they could live in a better atmosphere. I don't know if it would ever happen, but I was thinking about.

10. I worry about a lot of things. I know I need to take things as they come, but I don't. I think I find things to worry about if everything is good. I want to change this about myself because it is not good for me or the baby and I would have easier time coping with bad things if I just chill out.


So there are the 10 honest things about me. So I am going to tag Francesca, Mary K, Alicia S., Heather M., Shauna G., Rethsy, Julie E., Leanna, and Emmy.